Just Me…Coming back

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I took a couple weeks off from blogging to kind of clear my head, focus on some other things, and pretty much to get over my own sh*t! I’m gonna warn you now, this is a longer post than normal so bear with me! I’ll be blunt, trying to “become a  blogger” isn’t easy. I went into this thinking I need to have an outlet for my creative, fashion loving, traveling obsessed, food enthusiastic, spastic-nerd self and well I got caught up in the “what does everyone else think/ comparison game.” Let me be honest when I say that I understand all good things come with work and dedication and I am willing to go full force with both, but for this girl sometimes the thoughts in my head can interfere with the confident woman I believe myself to be.

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As a clinical therapist, I preach to the adolescents, teens, young women, and older women I work with about the importance of loving ourselves and being confident in who we are. What happened is I was teaching it to clients and forgetting about it myself. I started to feel overwhelmed thinking about gaining followers, having the best outfit, having a professional photo, designer buys, my body, and the “idea” of blogging. I really started to get a bit anxious. I thought I could manage my full-time job, start a fashion/lifestyle blog, take care of my home and family, oh and PLAN A WEDDING all at the same time without freaking out! Who was I kidding?? Only *myself* I lost site of what this blog was supposed to be, fun!

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I consider myself a strong, confident, determined woman. I like the way I look on most days, I have an amazing life full of wonderful friends, family, and the best fiancé a girl could ask for, but still… I was feeling like I wasn’t enough. I found that I was scrolling through IG comparing myself to these bloggers with 300,000 followers and I felt “less than.” I started to feel like my body wasn’t beautiful, that I was “fatter” than usual, that my hair looked blah, and that I didn’t have the talent needed to help others with fashion and advice. I stopped working out, haven’t eaten the best, stopped planning posts ahead of time, haven’t taken a new photo, haven’t thought of a fun blog idea, and spent my time with work and some wedding planning. I can’t even blame my lack of blogging on my lack of time- because let’s be real if you want to do something bad enough you will make the time for it! My overwhelming self-doubt took over and I started to think of giving up. I spent the past 3 weeks looking at wedding venues, working, and getting caught up in the “give up” game. Well, today that changes. I am going to continue to write this blog even if my dad and BFF are the only ones who actually read it. I am going to take chances and throw myself out there. I am going to dedicate more time to the things I love and less time to worrying about what others might love. I am going to be as confident as the 8-year-old girl in the picture below is. And if no one follows, no one comments, and I end up spending time doing this only for myself and 3 readers, well then that’s okay to me!

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** above photo is a glamour shot I took with my mom when I was about 8 years old. I remember the day perfectly and remember telling my mom I was gonna be a model because taking pictures is fun. So let’s use that positive energy for this blog.

More fun pics and topics to come!

ps,

lots of love

dani ❤

3 thoughts on “Just Me…Coming back”

  1. You go girl!!! You are accomplished and beautiful inside and out! I’d love to read on your blog about what makes you the person you are already and how you got to where you are. It would be interesting to hear what made you to decide to become a therapist, how you met your guy, what it feels like to try modeling. I think the hardest part about fashion/food/lifestyle blogging is constantly having to come up with new ideas, new outfits, new poses, new meals, new places to visit, etc. You have the advantage of already having so much within you that you could write about and definitely any picture posted of you would be gorgeous whatever you are wearing, high fashion or not. Just do you (whatever feels natural and fun) and you will have plenty of followers looking up to you and wanting to emulate you. From Reader #4

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